I get tired of worrying about what others think of me. I feel like this is the best place to start for me. I feel like I have been drowning my entire life. I have been trying to please people my entire life and it has only brought me down; trying to give everyone everything I thought that they could need; as long as it was within my realm I would have done it. I thought that by making other people happy I was making myself happy. I was only tearing myself down further; killing myself more and more everyday. I am at the point of change in my life; I know that change is the only constant thing in life; so all I can say is that recently I have seen the error in my ways and I know that I have been the only problem in my life. I don't want to blame things on others because they can only do to us what we allow them to do. And I had allowed them to do anything to me; allowed myself to be taken advantage of; allowed others to determine what would go on in my life. But recently I have taken control over my life. I have a daughter she's 17 months old and how would I feel if she allowed herself to be taken advantage of; if she lived her life the way I do. I would be upset because I know that I raised her better than that! I can't say if I was raised better; I feel sometimes I was exposed to far too much as a child. My mother was young when she had me so I guess sometimes people need more time to grow and mature. I am glad that I waited some time to have her; I'm 25 and I'm now in control of what happens to me. I love the new life that I am living. I don't take no for an answer unless I want to.......
Peace and much love to ya!
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